Suffering ... خاطرة مريرة من المهندي

[المهندي]

what is happening in this life ?? what's going on in this world ??
why life is so tough on me ??
I have to fight ... day & night
living with fear ... afraid from the future
the unknown future !!
do I have to suffer ? why do I have to ?
why me ?
I didn't do anything wrong ... !
I lived like the others ...
laughing .. crying ... feeling ... just like them
but , I'm feeling like I'm living in a different world
a completely different world ...
a dark world ... full of pain ... full of suffer
I tried to keep on hope ... to get away from this fate ...
but my hope starts to vanish ...
I tried to get help from people ... but ,
every time I say that I found the one who will be my light
through this night ... I found him one of them !!!
them ..... !! those are people who used to throw me back
since I born ... I born alone ... to die alone ...
I said these words many time ago ... some of those people
told not to give up ... we will help you ... but , they
left me with a hole inside my heart ... inside my self ...
inside my life ...
I used to look up to the sky ... dreaming of flying ...
I used to think for the future ... , but now ...
all what I can see ... is waves of pain ... and lots of pictures
from my painful past ... the past that I promised my self not to be remembered ,
but I'm so week now , no hope , no light , no one near of me ...
now ... I'm ... suffering ... crying ... bleeding ... alone ...
all alone ... waiting for the end
my last message for you .. all of you ... try to avoid what happened to me
try to make this life the happiest moments that you live ...
I don't want anyone of you to go through what I went ...
I can't ask for help ... cause I'm already dead ...
a heart without beats
an eyes without tears
only .... a body with a dying soul ...
I'll rest in peace soon enough ...



إن شاء الله تعجبكم

و تقبلوا اخلص تحياتي و اشواقي

المهندي
بحر الشوق

حسبتج باقيه بقى عمري ... لكن مضى عمري و مابقيتي

[Ahmad]

but I'm so weak now , no hope , no light , no one is near me ...
now ... I'm ... suffering ... crying ... bleeding ... alone ...
all alone ... waiting for the end

I can't ask for help ... cause I'm already dead ...
a heart without beats
an eye without tears
only .... a body with a dying soul ...
I'll rest in peace soon enough ...

Amazing Khalid. Actually amazing will not give u ur right, no word can describe what u wrote.

Thank u very much

sj tfjeeeeeeeeeer

[مريم]

إنا لله وإنا اليه راجعون ..

عظم الله اجركم ... !

بس في منو؟ :blink:

في هالكلمات الحزينه ..
تونا نقول يا خالد new life

وانا اشوفك رجعت لل suffering من جديد

ياخوي هذي سنة الحياه .. شوي happy وشوي sad

I tried to keep on hope ... to get away from this fate ...
but my hope starts to vanish

لا تقول جذيه الله يسلمك ..

بس ما شاء الله كلمات رائعه ومعناها كبير مثل ما عودتنا ..
الف الف شكر لك يا خالد .. يا قلمنا النابض ..

تحياتي ابن عموو
:s15:

[الغااااالية]

حروف خائفه وجريئة

كلمات حزينه وبريئة

عبارات مؤلمة ومؤلمة ومؤلمة

خاطره رائعة ولكنها حزينه

:cry:

المهنـــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــدي

قلبآ ينبض بالحياة لابد أن ينبض بالسعاده يومآ ما
مهما قالوا لك ومهما مثلوا أمامك
ومهما شربت من ويلات الدنيا
لابد أن ينبض قلبك يومآ ما بالحياة الحقيقة..

تحيااااتي المهندي
وأمنياتي الصادقة لك بالسعاده

:s15:

[المهندي]

ثانكس
الحمد لله إنها اعجبتكم :) احمد كفايه قرايتك للخاطرة ما احتاج منك و لا كلمة ... لأنه مجرد قرايتك لها شكر لي
اقووووووول بنت عمووووو عادنج ماتعرفين شسالفه خخخخخخخخخخخخ طلعتي مب معاي عالخط
هههههههه
انا عارف حتى إني قلت لج في ردي على خاطرة نيو لايف اقري إللي عقب لأني كنت حاس إنج بتنصدمين
ومشكورة يالغالية على ردج الراقي صراحه
و مثل ماقلت لكم من قبل هذي تجارب مريت فيها و لحظات في حياتي لكن الحين الوضع غير و الحمد لله غير غير كثير :)

و مشكورين مرة تانيه

و تقبلوا تحياتي

المهندي
بحرالشوق

[Ahmad]

Thank God that what ever u wrote is considered to be past for u now.

Thank God that ur life now is much better than before.

i wish i can be same.
:s15:

[المهندي]

you CAN just search in the deepest place in your heart and you will fine what you are seeking for
okey

Yours'

المهندي
بحرالشوق